This is a post from my friend Froggymama's blog. Her daughter has Cystic Fibrosis. I think the piece speaks for itself, so without further comment...
A few months ago, I submitted this piece to the magazine The Sun. Well... it didn't get published, so I thought I'd post it again, so you can all say, "that magazine sucks," or "they don't know what they're missing," or "maybe your submission got lost," and then I'll feel better. The topic was"Finding Out." Feel free to stroke my ego.
Finding Out
by Froggymama
When the call came, I was alone with my four-month-old daughter. She instinctively knew something was wrong, and wailed with me as the doctor explained over the phone why she hadn’t gained weight in two months, why she was anemic, and why her skin tasted like she’d been dipped in the salty sea. The doc was calm, chatty even, making small talk while I fumbled through the house, looking for a pen and paper, to write down the results of the rest of her life. He must have felt that if he kept me on the phone, he could somehow prevent it from being real, from sinking in. With nothing left to say, he asked if I would be alright. My baby was screaming and the floor suddenly felt like one of those bouncy houses parents rent for a child’s birthday party. I was dizzy and drunk with the knowledge that our worst fears, the one thing I had prayed wouldn’t be true, couldn’t be true, was now written on a post-it note. Somehow, I managed to get out the words, “We’ll be fine,” even though I was sure we would never be fine again. I called my husband, my sister, my parents, and my best friend. Their guttural sobs on the other end of the line made it real. It wasn’t a dream. We would never wake from this.I stood at the screen door, waiting for someone to come, to open the door, wrap their arms around me and say, “Everything will be okay.” And they all came, one by one; saying the only thing you can say at a time like this, “At least now you know.”
4 comments:
Wow.. amazing story. Great detail on the feelings.
She's such an amazing writer. She describes so perfectly what it feels like when the bottom falls out and you are told your baby has an incurable disease. Thanks for posting it for more to see. I DO hope it is pubished somewhere.
Tami (formerly of sixtytwodays....*sigh*)
mom to Emily, 3 with CF
Hey Tami, I miss your blog, I loved reading it this summer! Maybe you can bring it back over the holiday break?
*sigh*
I've been missing it too. Wishing I could find time to revive it or start a new one. Maybe a Christmas break update is just the thing to get me back into it. I hop over here every so often and I always enjoy it! Your boys are gorgeous.
Bye the way, we went out shopping on Friday morning, but steered clear of Wal-mart. TOO insane. Waiting in line at Menard's someone said that there had been a purse snatching at the Wal-mart...CRAZY.
Hope your holiday preperations are going well. Post the turkey crafts...I'm always looking for ideas!
Tami
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